Recently the fatigue come back again..... Its tough to get up in the morning and concentrate at work. To be honest I waste 5 days out of a week, becos I simply cant focus well at work, I just drag thru the working hours.
I don't know how long more to endure or probably the fatigue will stays with me till labour, the only thing that can keep me going is Sheldon and HB.
So when my mind is off, I think of them, think of all the happy things that will happen in the future.
Tml, I'll be seeing Sheldon again, but this time round w/o HB. He will be going for M.J's movie with his brother, cant blame him this time round as it was a last minute change of appt. Initally the antenatal check up is on Saturday, due to the appt with Orthodontics can only be make on Saturday, HB will have to miss tml antenatal check.
PS: Anyway Im still in the midst of getting this blog up, hopefully I will have more energy and time to get this blog up.
October 29, 2009
October 20, 2009
Sheng Siong & The Wet Market Saga
Dont know why "tio" 4D and Toto also not so "zhun". One of the 4 markets that Sheng Siong bought over happen to be the one at our neighbourhood and that where we does our weekly marketing.
Apparently they will continue to operate the wet market as per usual but question is how long? No businessman will make a loss in any deals. Even if they were to operate the way it is, they will probably increase the rental of the stall and we as consumer will have to pay more.
Anyway we signed the petition. I guess the whole issue really blew up so badly that the GRC has sent out a circular to everyone in the neighbourhood to emphasis that the wet market will operate as usual despite hanging a big banner outside the market.
Opps the hard way doesnt work anymore yah? The people knows how to voice out and be heard.
Apparently they will continue to operate the wet market as per usual but question is how long? No businessman will make a loss in any deals. Even if they were to operate the way it is, they will probably increase the rental of the stall and we as consumer will have to pay more.
Anyway we signed the petition. I guess the whole issue really blew up so badly that the GRC has sent out a circular to everyone in the neighbourhood to emphasis that the wet market will operate as usual despite hanging a big banner outside the market.
Opps the hard way doesnt work anymore yah? The people knows how to voice out and be heard.
October 19, 2009
We have decided his name!!!
After a few months of discussion, we finally decided to name BB JL, Sheldon. We will not call him Prince Sheldon becos his Dad and Mom are not King and Queen. He has to grow up to be a matured and responsible man. I dont want him to grow up with "fantasy fairy tales" mindset which are nvr true in the reality of this world.
If I have a daughter, I seriously dont mind pampering her like a princess but not a son. I heard this sentence many years ago and I cant agree more with it.
儿子要好好教, 因为他长大了要去照顾别人家的女儿.
Origin and Meaning of the Name Sheldon
Gender: Boy
Origin: English
Meaning: Protected hill; deep valley
Emotional Roller Coaster
This 1 week plus have been full of ups and downs. It's a toll on the mental health for taking such long emotional roller coaster ride. I was hunt down by nightmare last night. Woke up with tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably again. I cannot imagine if I was to spend that 3 days in NUH all by myself.
These few days at home make me going into deep thoughts. I cant make any decision now as we still have 1 more specialist appt on this coming Wednesday.
I have to seriously re-consider abt my career. I dont hold tt kind of salary to hold such responsibilities. Ever since the last hoo ha, I have nvr been on leave or MC w/o any phone call from office. Almost every phone call is urgent, every issues that happen during my absence need immediate attention and its my attention............
I were breaking down at TMC after my scan and yet I have to pack my feelings to answer phone calls after phone calls. HB ask me how on earth are you going on Maternity Leave like this?
I no longer able to take on so much stress, I have a life to live normally, I aint no Superwoman, if earning lesser make me happier than it's a clear choice.
Hopefully when I rtn to office tml, I dont see a big mess waiting for me. Losing my cool and breaking down during my pregnancy is the last thing I ever want to do.
These few days at home make me going into deep thoughts. I cant make any decision now as we still have 1 more specialist appt on this coming Wednesday.
I have to seriously re-consider abt my career. I dont hold tt kind of salary to hold such responsibilities. Ever since the last hoo ha, I have nvr been on leave or MC w/o any phone call from office. Almost every phone call is urgent, every issues that happen during my absence need immediate attention and its my attention............
I were breaking down at TMC after my scan and yet I have to pack my feelings to answer phone calls after phone calls. HB ask me how on earth are you going on Maternity Leave like this?
I no longer able to take on so much stress, I have a life to live normally, I aint no Superwoman, if earning lesser make me happier than it's a clear choice.
Hopefully when I rtn to office tml, I dont see a big mess waiting for me. Losing my cool and breaking down during my pregnancy is the last thing I ever want to do.
October 18, 2009
Result is normal!!!
Sorry I know this post is a little late. After all the emotional roller coaster I have been going thru these few days, I thought it would be good tt I let myself settle down before continue blogging.
Nurse Chan from NUH called me on Friday to let me know tt the express test result is a good one. I immediately inform families and friends who have been mentally supporting me these few days.
Once again I really like to tks everyone for your support, encouragement and prayer, its becos of you guys we could hang in there stronger.
Will keep everyone update abt the progress abt Bb JL.
Nurse Chan from NUH called me on Friday to let me know tt the express test result is a good one. I immediately inform families and friends who have been mentally supporting me these few days.
Once again I really like to tks everyone for your support, encouragement and prayer, its becos of you guys we could hang in there stronger.
Will keep everyone update abt the progress abt Bb JL.
October 16, 2009
Updates abt Amniocentesis
As mentioned, I went for the Amniocentesis yesterday, the pain was far from what I imagined and expected.
Luckily we reached 1 hr before our appt time cos there were lots of forms to be filled up. We even need to go for a mini counseling abt Amniocentesis before we were call in for the scan and test.
Now I know why I was refer to NUH instead of TMC, I was refer to A.Professor Biswas, the Head of O&G department, I search online and realise that he is the specialist to go to for any genetic defect or disorder.
The nurses, doctor and A.Professor Biswas were very patience and detailed abt the scan. A.Professor Biswas even help to get the specialist we are suppose to see next wed but unfortunately she was in a midst of a surgery and couldnt attend to us.
Despite the pain, I was asked to stay still until they finish drawing the amnio fluid, seriously I dont know how I survived it. Luckily HB was allowed to be with me thru out the whole test. I cant even walk straight after the whole test and what make me more speechless was Daddy to be at the clinic didnt bother to give up seats to me after seeing in this state. Luckily a lady in her mid 40s at the other end of the clinic spotted me and gave up her seat to me.
I was given 3 days hospitalization leave and I can opt to either stay at home or hospital, I chose to stay home. To make thing worse I puke on my way home.
Every movement makes the wound hurts, even simple movement like breathing and peeing seems so painful. It didnt help when BB JL cant stay still and keep punching my wound.
Today was slightly better, Im able to move ard more and hopefully by tml the pain will be gone.
My cousin drop by my place today for lunch and even bought me bread for tea break. So sweet of her!!!
Anyway I feel so sorry for my colleagues who have to handle my job due to my sudden hospitalization leave. They are probably the nicest colleague on earth, they even sms me not to worry abt the work and tk a good rest.
Due to the urgency of the matter, Dr Wong schedule me an express + full test so that we can have the result in 48 hours instead of the usual 12 days. We have 23 pairs of chromosome in our body, the major genetic disorder are trisomy 13, 18 and 21. We will know these 3 pairs of chromosome result by tml, the remaining 20 pair which are usually not affected will be out in 12 days.
The whole bill came close to $900, due to the nature of the test we were allowed to deduct $550 from medisave and the rest by cash.
NUH will call me tml and inform me the result, I pray to GOD that BB JL is safe from all the genetic disorder.
While Im typing this, I rcv a encouraging sms from E. Tks Babe, you have been very supportive thru out my pregnancy and I tks god for a friend like you. In fact thru this incident, it really make me see who are those pple who I can truly call FRIEND!!!
Tks so much for being so supportive and encouraging!!!
A picture say a thousand words, tt how big my wound is, I leave it to u guys to imagine how thick tt needle is.
Luckily we reached 1 hr before our appt time cos there were lots of forms to be filled up. We even need to go for a mini counseling abt Amniocentesis before we were call in for the scan and test.
Now I know why I was refer to NUH instead of TMC, I was refer to A.Professor Biswas, the Head of O&G department, I search online and realise that he is the specialist to go to for any genetic defect or disorder.
The nurses, doctor and A.Professor Biswas were very patience and detailed abt the scan. A.Professor Biswas even help to get the specialist we are suppose to see next wed but unfortunately she was in a midst of a surgery and couldnt attend to us.
Despite the pain, I was asked to stay still until they finish drawing the amnio fluid, seriously I dont know how I survived it. Luckily HB was allowed to be with me thru out the whole test. I cant even walk straight after the whole test and what make me more speechless was Daddy to be at the clinic didnt bother to give up seats to me after seeing in this state. Luckily a lady in her mid 40s at the other end of the clinic spotted me and gave up her seat to me.
I was given 3 days hospitalization leave and I can opt to either stay at home or hospital, I chose to stay home. To make thing worse I puke on my way home.
Every movement makes the wound hurts, even simple movement like breathing and peeing seems so painful. It didnt help when BB JL cant stay still and keep punching my wound.
Today was slightly better, Im able to move ard more and hopefully by tml the pain will be gone.
My cousin drop by my place today for lunch and even bought me bread for tea break. So sweet of her!!!
Anyway I feel so sorry for my colleagues who have to handle my job due to my sudden hospitalization leave. They are probably the nicest colleague on earth, they even sms me not to worry abt the work and tk a good rest.
Due to the urgency of the matter, Dr Wong schedule me an express + full test so that we can have the result in 48 hours instead of the usual 12 days. We have 23 pairs of chromosome in our body, the major genetic disorder are trisomy 13, 18 and 21. We will know these 3 pairs of chromosome result by tml, the remaining 20 pair which are usually not affected will be out in 12 days.
The whole bill came close to $900, due to the nature of the test we were allowed to deduct $550 from medisave and the rest by cash.
NUH will call me tml and inform me the result, I pray to GOD that BB JL is safe from all the genetic disorder.
While Im typing this, I rcv a encouraging sms from E. Tks Babe, you have been very supportive thru out my pregnancy and I tks god for a friend like you. In fact thru this incident, it really make me see who are those pple who I can truly call FRIEND!!!
Tks so much for being so supportive and encouraging!!!
A picture say a thousand words, tt how big my wound is, I leave it to u guys to imagine how thick tt needle is.
October 14, 2009
From a heart broken soul
My pregnancy has been so far a joyful one despite the crazy fatigue, MS and etc. Never would I imagine I would walk out breaking down after a scan session.
Have anyone cried so badly till the vision was blur for the rest of the day?
Did any parents sang nursery rhyme to your little one with tears in your eyes?
Did any MTB cried when BB hiccups? (No one knows how relieve I felt to know tt BB JL is drinking well tt he hiccups)
I spent these few days like years........... HB told me GOD will nvr give us something we cannot handle, how I wish he didnt trust us so much.
I spend most of my time searching for relevant information and read up as much as possible. HB was right, there is no point asking what went wrong, instead we should channel our energy to remedy the issue.
God give me a tough battle ahead but Im blessed with supportive friends and family members. I Thank You all for all the kind words and supports. Most didnt ask me what happen, they just offer their best concern. We will hang in there even stronger!!!
BB JL, pls JIAYOU together!!! There are lots of love ones out there cheering for you despite knowing your condition, you will be fill with unconditional love and they are looking forward to your arrival.
Tml, I'll be going for the amnio test. This is 1 test many MTB drag, it's not becos of the pain, it's becos BB have a chance of contracting infection and 0.5% of miscarriage. No MTB in this world would risk even 0.00001% to let anything happen to their BB.
My Mom and friends told me that the amnio test will be a very painful one. Dear God if you are hearing this, doesnt matter what pain I have to go thru, as long as BB JL is well and good, I dont mind going thru any pain for a hundred, thousand or even a million times.
Pls continue to keep us in your prayer. Thank You Very Much for being with us.
Have anyone cried so badly till the vision was blur for the rest of the day?
Did any parents sang nursery rhyme to your little one with tears in your eyes?
Did any MTB cried when BB hiccups? (No one knows how relieve I felt to know tt BB JL is drinking well tt he hiccups)
I spent these few days like years........... HB told me GOD will nvr give us something we cannot handle, how I wish he didnt trust us so much.
I spend most of my time searching for relevant information and read up as much as possible. HB was right, there is no point asking what went wrong, instead we should channel our energy to remedy the issue.
God give me a tough battle ahead but Im blessed with supportive friends and family members. I Thank You all for all the kind words and supports. Most didnt ask me what happen, they just offer their best concern. We will hang in there even stronger!!!
BB JL, pls JIAYOU together!!! There are lots of love ones out there cheering for you despite knowing your condition, you will be fill with unconditional love and they are looking forward to your arrival.
Tml, I'll be going for the amnio test. This is 1 test many MTB drag, it's not becos of the pain, it's becos BB have a chance of contracting infection and 0.5% of miscarriage. No MTB in this world would risk even 0.00001% to let anything happen to their BB.
My Mom and friends told me that the amnio test will be a very painful one. Dear God if you are hearing this, doesnt matter what pain I have to go thru, as long as BB JL is well and good, I dont mind going thru any pain for a hundred, thousand or even a million times.
Pls continue to keep us in your prayer. Thank You Very Much for being with us.
October 10, 2009
Pls pray for us!!!
Yesterday 5mths detailed scan result wasn't a very good one..... We will have to go for another test and see another specialist to determine the seriousness of the whole problem. I will update everyone once everything is finalise.
Meanwhile, pls pray for BB JL and pray for more strength to bless upon us for the battle ahead.
Meanwhile, pls pray for BB JL and pray for more strength to bless upon us for the battle ahead.
October 7, 2009
Will you die for me?
I didnt ask him to intake any toxic, kekeke. His snoring has been getting from bad to worse and I have problem falling back to sleep after I wake up for toilet breaks.
So we went to source around and manage to find an anti-snoring spray. It somehow works but the effect are not very lasting. The snoring will only rtn ard 3-5am and its less noisy.
Thought of going to the dentist for a custom made mouth gard, but is hopping tt by shedding some weight his snoring should improve......
October 5, 2009
My Mom has a new idol
Her new idol is BB JL and she is so Crazy abt him.........
She bought a 4 tier toyogo cabinet for BB JL's belonging. I heard that she bought hell lot of BB stuffs and she can even tell me she think of stocking up diapers now. I went shopping with her yesterday, the amount of thing she grab for BB JL is...... We spent another $50 for BB JL's clothings and those clothings are on sales.
My mom had even wash the BB clothing...... My sis thought she went to the wrong home after seeing all the BB clothing hanging outside for drying.
She was the one who tell me "aiya no need to buy so many BB stuff", see who is the kan cheong and kiasu one. She also said tt "Dont worry I will not spoil ur child",well I guess this is the first lie she said regarding her grandchild.
Whenever she shop for BB stuff, she will buy 2 sets, one set is meant to keep at her place the other set is meant for my place. My dad also bravo, he can think of a 2 years later plan. I told them if we put BB JL at infant care, they will have educational programme for BB which is a good stepping stone for BB JL. He told my mom after BB JL graduate from infant care, they will tk over to tk care of BB JL.
I can imagine, when BB JL is out they will bug me every now and then to bring BB JL to their place. Anyway this pair of grandparent left me speechless.....
She bought a 4 tier toyogo cabinet for BB JL's belonging. I heard that she bought hell lot of BB stuffs and she can even tell me she think of stocking up diapers now. I went shopping with her yesterday, the amount of thing she grab for BB JL is...... We spent another $50 for BB JL's clothings and those clothings are on sales.
My mom had even wash the BB clothing...... My sis thought she went to the wrong home after seeing all the BB clothing hanging outside for drying.
She was the one who tell me "aiya no need to buy so many BB stuff", see who is the kan cheong and kiasu one. She also said tt "Dont worry I will not spoil ur child",well I guess this is the first lie she said regarding her grandchild.
Whenever she shop for BB stuff, she will buy 2 sets, one set is meant to keep at her place the other set is meant for my place. My dad also bravo, he can think of a 2 years later plan. I told them if we put BB JL at infant care, they will have educational programme for BB which is a good stepping stone for BB JL. He told my mom after BB JL graduate from infant care, they will tk over to tk care of BB JL.
I can imagine, when BB JL is out they will bug me every now and then to bring BB JL to their place. Anyway this pair of grandparent left me speechless.....
Im sick
Im already on they road of recovery. HB pass the flu bug to me and I was on MC for 2 days.
After learning my last lesson and hearing the news abt a preggy who pass away after she refuse medicine despite contracting H1N1. I do not want to drag my flu for another 2 weeks and cough till I spot again. This time round I duly took the flu medicine and started to feel better on Friday. I chose to stay home as I do not want to contract any other viruses esp H1N1 from others when my immune is down to zero.
Im feeling so much better now and Im glad tt I make the right choice. To all the MTB out there, pls kindly see a doctor when u are unwell and tk the medication prescribe for you. Pls dont try to be wonder woman and get urself into more trouble. If u r not fit how would u be able to continue nurture the little one in your womb.
October 2, 2009
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