Today I were on urgent leave.... Why? Not becos something happen at home. Becos too much thing happen at work.
The moment I think of turning up for work tml stress me up. The whole of yesterday night I couldnt sleep. That not my usual habit. At 10pm I usually will be very tired and need to turn in before 1030pm. I stay awake all night long...... When morning alarm went off, my heart suddenly start to beat very fast!!! I wake my hubby up, I told him my heart is feeling very unwell.
3 years ago, when I had mild depression I also had this type of heart racing feeling.
Seriously work is very stressed up lately. Even hubby is getting phobia of my work..... The other day he saw me with a paper bag, he immediately ask "You bring your work back home again?" Yes!!! I have been bringing work back home to do.... Even on MC also have to work from home. When every other thing is not being cared by anyone, I have to care.... But who appreciate? Not being appreciated is a minor issue, but why things turn ard at me? People bitching on MSN abt me, trying to play politics against me!!! Seriously Im not interested in any games of politics, I just want to go to work at 9am, knock off at 6pm. I dont need to answer for so many pple things, read so many pple emails. When every other pple didnt turn up for work, it became my business...... When I have to do every other pple work and my work became backlog.
When will all these nonsense thing stop? Enough is enough!!! Now you know the reason why I just cant wait to go for my taiwan trip.
Hubby shoot his favorite sentence again: Not happy, quit, stay home annd company the dogs.
At 11:51pm, my heart is still having the racing beat. For that salary amt every mth, not worth it!!!