Emotional Roller Coaster

This 1 week plus have been full of ups and downs. It's a toll on the mental health for taking such long emotional roller coaster ride. I was hunt down by nightmare last night. Woke up with tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably again. I cannot imagine if I was to spend that 3 days in NUH all by myself.

These few days at home make me going into deep thoughts. I cant make any decision now as we still have 1 more specialist appt on this coming Wednesday.

I have to seriously re-consider abt my career. I dont hold tt kind of salary to hold such responsibilities. Ever since the last hoo ha, I have nvr been on leave or MC w/o any phone call from office. Almost every phone call is urgent, every issues that happen during my absence need immediate attention and its my attention............

I were breaking down at TMC after my scan and yet I have to pack my feelings to answer phone calls after phone calls. HB ask me how on earth are you going on Maternity Leave like this?

I no longer able to take on so much stress, I have a life to live normally, I aint no Superwoman, if earning lesser make me happier than it's a clear choice.

Hopefully when I rtn to office tml, I dont see a big mess waiting for me.  Losing my cool and breaking down during my pregnancy is the last thing I ever want to do.